吃饭慢

我常常因为耕耕吃饭太慢而气死。他时常没胃口吃饭，稍微大口一点就要呕。要他自己吃饭，他可以慢条斯理，慢慢在盘中寻宝，汤匙翻来翻去也不舀饭。通常一顿饭要费至少一个小时才能吃完。
这两天，我让他选择。一，现在就把饭吃完；二，饭收起来，下一餐的奶没得喝。他这两次都选了后者。看着他又瘦又小，现在又不吃饭，我真不知道要怎么办。

Ben to Kids worship without mummy and dad

Today is the first time Ben attended the church kids worship without mummy and daddy's accompany. Huh, finally he can do this after almost half a year and this is the day we have been waiting for. Both mummy and daddy are very happy and proud of our little boy.
Yes, of course before the church, I explained several times to him that he now has turned 3 years old and can be independent without us. Mummy needs to go upstairs and listen to 'adult story' and he has to stay downstairs to listen to 'children's story'. He then agreed to let me go upstairs and he himself stayed downstairs. When we reached the second floor, he took off his sandals and went in himself. I knew he was nervous and scared because when he was pulled away to avoid someone coming with chairs, he was shocked and his face looked scared. I went in and brought him into his classroom, showed him where his coins were put in his bag. Then I brought him to his teacher and he agreed to let me leave.
Well, the 1.5 hours upstairs was not relaxing either because I kept thinking if he would look for me. Anyway, I know once he agreed to let me leave, he would try his best to adapt it. When we finished our service upstairs, I went directly to his classroom. He saw me through the glass window and waved to me happily while eating his biscuit on his chair. The teacher told me that he behaved well, didn't look for me and could concentrate for quite long. He also participated in singing session. He then came out, held my hands happily, which made me feel proud of him :D
At home, he told me that he can attend church without me and daddy in future. Hehe... mummy and daddy can now attend our service together again!

Hot Air Balloon Festive

This morning, we brought Ben to the 4th Hot Air Balloon Festive in Putrajaya. It was also the first time I attended the festive but it was quite disappointing that there were only about 10 hot air balloon to see. Some more, those were the very common designs, and those special ones we saw in newspaper were not set up yet.

The orange parachute fell into the lake.

Last two weeks, Ben was colouring his Winnie The Pooh colouring book. When I saw the camp fire, I ask him to colour it with red. He asked me,' I think fire is blue?'. I hold a second to figure out why he asked that. Then I realised every time he sees me cooking, the fire that came out of the gas stove is BLUE! Haha, you are right, Ben!

回来啦!

有太多的事情来不及记录，所以迟至今天才动手写。
耕耕回美里过新年，依旧记得所有的事物，购物广场，等。当晚回到家，他好像重新翻开四个月的记忆库，在客厅里看东看西，看见他的小沙发，熟悉的环境，然后走进房间看见他睡了两年半的床。当晚，我们本来想让他跟回我睡，怎知他依然记得那是阿嬷的位子，不肯让我睡。见到宝贝孙回来，阿嬷和公公开心极了。
在美里的两个礼拜，耕耕粘回阿嬷，让我终于可以透透气，腰酸背痛也在这个时候慢慢痊愈。他在美里吃得比较多，活动也多，所以在短短的两个星期，从93公分长高至95公分。伤风咳嗽也痊愈了。我想，他在美里真的很开心。
他在美里期间，出现了一些坏毛病。每当长辈想抱他，疼他的时候，他就会拒绝，然后乱打人。因为这样，让有心人有了机会批评。妈妈也问我他为什么会这样，我因此感到压力，好像没有把他教好。
离开美里的时候，他哭着找阿嬷。直到上了飞机，我问他，我们现在飞去哪里，他答说，KL。我继续说：‘我们以后再飞回来美里找阿嬷，然后再飞回去KL，再飞来美里。Pilot看见了会笑，咦，你怎么飞来飞去？’他听了觉得很好笑，就重复我的话，自己咯咯笑，就没吵着找阿嬷了。
这次回来吉隆坡，他很快就适应了。看见他的家，他的‘A Wong’，他的床，他说他回来KL了。礼拜天去教会有小朋友一起玩，他很喜欢。我想，他是真的适应了。感谢神，我没有因为旁人的阻扰而延迟把耕耕带回来。
当了全职妈妈快半年了，我自己也适应了。从起初的手忙脚乱，到今天可以重新拥有自己的时间，我觉得很棒。我记得七年前，那时还在觅职，我向神祷告，求他给我一份安定的工作，好让我可以像读书时，有一个规律的灵修时间亲近他。结果在过去的六年，我没有好好的灵修过，常常因为疲倦而放弃。当然我没忘记曾经想过要好好的灵修，但是总是有心而力不从。现在，我逐渐有了下午的时间，我读圣经，祷告，心里充满神赐的喜乐。但是偶尔我还会懒惰，想读书，想看报纸，想上网，想做一些家务。我已经读了以弗所书至约翰三书，正要进入犹大书。这些都是我信了主这么多年都没读完的书卷。我觉得很充实，对神，对耶稣有了更深的认识。我知道圣灵也在我心里做工，使我胜过试探。
曾经因为耕耕伤风咳嗽久久不愈，我压力非常大。大到我不想让耕耕去教会与其他小孩接触，也不想让他参与小组，因为总是觉得他们把病毒传来传去，病很难好起来。后来有一天，突然心里就是一直责备自己：‘你怎么这么傻？你差点阻碍你的孩子和你自己来到神面前认识他’。整个下午我睡不着，就是一直责备自己：‘你真傻，你真傻’。后来我的心结松了，我承认自己的软弱，也深信主会医治并保守耕耕，给他健康的身体，让他可以跟小朋友一起认识神。我想，要不是圣灵感动，提醒我，我怎么可能会有这种经历？
现在，我们晚上不开冷气睡觉，虽然有时候热得流汗，但是为了耕耕的健康，我们还是坚持。感谢神，最近晚上都不太热，而且我们也比较能够适应了。这个si fad zai :D